Baby Python No More

So today, I Googled my name. Clicked "images" and found a familiar photograph of my former Student Nurse during PCI Rotation when I was in my final year in Nursing School.

Turns out, the photo was posted in her tumblr along with a poem I made. I never thought someone actually find that poem "lovely" coz no one really said so.

Anyway, here's the poem I made which was presented along with a slideshow presentation during our Senior's Night (that was 2 years ago!) as a Tribute to our Clinical Instructors.

My skinny self during our Senior's Night.
Peplum wasn't making a come back yet at that time but I was already in love with it!

Myself 2 years ago looking cheery and fresh from Graduation Ceremony

Being magis is what everything you desired to see

That’s why you brought us up unswervingly

You say angels in the sick room we ought to be

Though not always seen we still tried carefully

Too soon we will no longer be baby pythons

So in a little while we’ll see you at the nurse station

Though by then we will no longer be your SN’s

Please always know that you’ll remain our inspiration

So even when the days filled with encouragement has departed

In us will stay all the wisdom you have imparted

And if there are moments you feel unappreciated

Believe that deep in our hearts you will forever be cherished

Gone are the days you saturate us with anxiety

Spent are the times we supply you with worries

Though by then we will jointly be happy

For sure at times we both will miss those memories

So just before the concluding farewells are bidden

Let the brimming contents of these grateful hearts be unladden

Sorry for the creases in your forehead that we’ve given

And thank you for the prudence you’ve painstakingly laden

And this post, ladies and gentlemen, is the result of my desire to feed this blog with a new post.

July is nearing to its end and I barely updated it! 

I am currently in Manila now to process some adult life related documents in my pursuit

for greener pastures.

I hope everything will turn out okay.

I hope this is really God's plan for me.

mwahs and tsups,

EU.

drunk in the middle of afternoon

Because listening to a rant is as good as listening to a clock as it ticks by, let's just pretend that I am not ranting here. Rather, let's pretend that you are all with me here as I feel drunk at the middle of the afternoon because I made the fatal mistake of ordering a glass of Mixed Berry but to my taste buds, it really is like a wine. wow, how long was that sentence? no, i am not ranting - not yet.

Okay. So right about now, too much kerfuffle going on around me.

To my front is a bunch of middle-aged ":businessmen" doing "business talk" of some health product to his potential customers. As I pretend that I am not eavesdropping, he tells his potential customers that he has tried the product himself so he can attest to how effective it really is. And I am thinking, how many "businessmen" do you know who haven't tried their own product? Who would fall for such obvious marketing? Not me.

To my right is a couple. I assume they are. The girl is glued to her phone - probably taking advantage of free wifi like I do while the guy is glued to his laptop. And I am thinking, I would never fancy a date like that. Never.

My ears are getting hotter (and if I can see it perhaps it's getting redder and redder by the second) and oh how it rings, it riiiings! But no matter what, I keep sipping the wine.. err, the mixed berry iced drink. I asked an MBB crew who passed by IN FRONT of me for a glass of service water but to some stroke of misfortune, he's deaf - or he just pretends to be.

Now my attention has shifted to the people to my front-left (uh, i dunno how to name that direction). They are a bunch of friends eating gelato with all merriment, talking about that weird Philo professor. Now I miss my friends. Now my heart stings. Now I have to stop looking at their peachy part of this cafe before the sting reaches my eyes.

the one to point fingers at for giving me hot and ringing ears, mini dizzy spells and a yeah, this fruitless discussion of a post so abstruse it's so senseless already

Perhaps I'm too bored or perhaps this is merely the effects of the wine which hid itself in the name of Mixed Berry Iced Drink which is now swimming through my whole system. I decide not to consume all of it, finish this truly random rambling, hit publish, turn off my laptop and off to home I go.

ciao,

EU.

PS: 

As I was about to turn off my laptop, Mother Nature weeps and I thought, I can't go home now. Okay then, might as well gulp the remainder of this one hell of a drink and be drunk all the way! After all, it's been close to two years since I last felt this way. ugh

Guess Who's Back, Back Again

 I've been away for what? One week? Or was it nearly two weeks? It felt like years, y'know?

Anyhoo, I am back and I am home!

I am not in the mood for words as of the moment so I'm sharing some of the happenings in my life recently. Enjoy! winks

Terence, one of my few best guy friends.

Hanah guuurl! missed you geeeeng!

and of course, mi familia <3

until I'm in the mood for a more wordy post,

EU.

Behind the Surface Bravado

i may appear like I'm one independent lady loving the taste of new-found freedom

but behind the surface bravado,

I am just one homesick daughter, sister, friend

yearning to be back home to the people I love most.

Sure, I was dying to get away from the

nagging mother,

the annoying sister

and the overprotective father

but truth be told?

i'd rather be nagged at

be annoyed

be overprotected

than be miles away from them.

i am used to drama

just not this kind

absolutely not this kind.

I can't remember the last time I felt brave. But still, I know all things are happening according to the Master's will. I may be a torn soul right now but this too shall pass. I know this too will pass.

Be What You Do

Everyday, we're buffeted wildly by whatever emails, conversations, news, events demands, that are going on around us. Our minds become a constant deluge of thoughts dwelling in the past, worries of the future, distractions pulling us in every direction.

But all of that melts away when we focus on just doing.

It doesn't matter what the doing is: sitting, walking, writing, reading, eating, washing, talking, snuggling, playing. By focusing on the doing, we drop our worries and anxieties, jealousies and anger, grieving and distraction.


If you're washing the dishes, do it slowly, and feel every sensation. if you're eating fruit, taste it, feel its textures, be mindful of your hunger or lack of it. If you're writing something, pour your heart into that writing, become the writing, inhabit the words.

JUST DO.

The rest of the world becomes meaningless distraction. It's just you, and your doing.

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something to enliven myself to keep doing what i started doing. i am the new girl and im still finding my way with the whole process of the company. funny how one day, im so confident about one thing and then the next day, another task slaps me in the face and i end up dumbfounded by it. i will focus on the good of it. i can do this. i WILL do this.

EU.


an excerpt from BDJ Planner 2012, February

Mommy, I Feel Hot

Me and my baby during happy times.

I received a terrible, terrible news a few days back - Casey was sick. In fact, so sick she vomits and poos blood. Three days prior to that, she just received three doses of immunization so upon hearing what happened, I was really blaming the Vet! Turns out, Casey has been sick even before she got immunized so the Canine Parvovirus still got her.

I was really crying my heart out that I wasn't with her at her weakest. =(

My family sent her immediately to the nearest Vet Clinic and now, she's still admitted and is hooked with an IV line for her to keep hydrated (she refuses to eat anything!)

sick but still biting her leash..ahh baby, you are still so CUTE with a capital C!

tssk..she lost a lot of weight! Poor li'l girl =,(

it pains me so much to see you this way, Babe! =,( I bet you too could see the pain she feels in her eyes.
 She looks real weak. =,(

As of the moment, my family back home wasn't able to visit her today coz the Vet Clinic is close on Sundays. By the morrow, they'll see her and I'm really hoping and praying that she's well and back to her active self again by that time.

Please help us pray for her. I love her so much!

BE WELL CASEY!

DON'T YOU DARE LEAVE US!

BE WELL!

worried to the nth level,

EU.

Why I Haven't Pack Up Yet

I am bound to fly to Manila this Saturday and surprise surprise! I haven't pack up my things yet. And this babe over there is the one to point fingers at. My heart bleeds that I have to leave her behind and how I won't be able to be with her as she grows up.

I have literally cried tears on the many occasions that she would make lambing to me and realize how I have to endure months without those moments anymore. We sleep together and I always find it hard to sleep at night coz I just wanna savor every moment I have with her.

I hope and pray that by the time I come back, my Casey would still recognize me.

sighs,

EU.


see more of her pictures here
(you have to log in on facebook first to see these pics)

Feliz Navidad!

 Our little tree minutes after the clock hit 12 midnight - left with only little presents for Papa and Mama's godchildren.

 Went Christmas shopping for FIVE important people:

Papa, Mama, Li'l Sis, Boyfriend and hell yeah - MYSELF! ;)

 I fancied the Christmas bag of M&S so much I had to get one for myself so I self-gifted me with these:

 HAHAHAHA! winks

 Gift from Santa aka boyfriend! I was like GASP when I unwrapped his present and found this!

YAAAAAY! Been wanting a BDJ planner but it was too expensive that I opted not to buy it myself so when I saw what he got for me, I was really as happy as a cricket! ^_^

 THANK YOU HEAPS, Do <3

 My heart bleeds knowing how A LOT of these discount coupons won't be maximized.

My small city doesn't house all these shops!

insert ayys and oohs of disappointment here

Another present from another Santa aka Papa! Yeeeeey! Thank You, Pap! ^___^

Despite the calamity that hit my small beloved city one week ago, I hope and pray that the victims will still find time to celebrate their survival from that awful, awfuuuul flash flood. There may be less or zero material things but what;s important is that we give thanks for making it to Christmas 2011!

I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas! 

mwahs and tsups,

EU.

Be Good To Me, December!

I welcome December with skyrocketing hopes that it'd be extra MERRY and AWESOME like last year. I Have a feeling this is going to be one great Christmas Season and I'm keeping my fingers crossed with palms held together that nobody or nothing will get it jinxed.

Anyhoo, since I haven't started blogging last year yet, here's a glimpse of how my Christmases went.

Those are my paternal cousins =D The Ms. Gay Competition has always been the highlight of the Emanos' Christmas get together and I'm soo excited who's gonna take home the crown this year!

Trivia 1 : I was the ahem, "stylist" of the one to me left, Kuya Bombom. Isn't she one lovely becky*? =D
Trivia 2: They're all 100% macho men! Seeing them all act like real beckies is just capital F-U-N!

I'm with my maternal cousins here with our Lolo Boy. I'm not sure if Cousin Kong is going to make it for the holidays but I sure hope he'll earn his Christmas leave! I really had fun with them last year.

Okay, so that's it dearies! I gotta go work now!

Here's hoping we all will have a great Christmas and New Year!

with skyrocketing hopes of a MERRY and AWESOME Christmas,

EU.

becky* is a Filipino gay lingo for GAY.